Outsourcing My Own Understanding

Okay, so I woke up this morning and I was going to use Chat because I felt frustrated about the next steps I should take regarding a life/business decision. And a funny thing happened, the server was down, so I was unable to basically outsource my own understanding. So, I got quiet and I started praying because it's something I naturally do in the morning.

What I understood was that we all have our own special gifts, and aligning with those gifts allows us to align with our authentic selves.

I had this exact conversation with my hair dresser yesterday, not realizing it would be a reinforcing theme today. Just like our birth charts are unique to each individual, we all have our own strengths and gifts that make us who we were created to be.

Through my own life experiences, I've come to understand that when we are out of alignment with our true authentic selves and our gifts, it can create a feeling of frustration, fatigue, struggle and heaviness. And this week I felt that very thing. I found myself slipping back into an old behavior pattern by taking on too much, and trying to become everything the project needed instead of honoring what I'm actually good at.

I was working on a project and the intricate details of it all. The more I focused on those details, the more disconnected I felt from myself. I noticed I was frustrated, ungrounded, and even my journaling had become surface-level. I was waking up later than usual, which meant I was losing the quiet time I normally spend meditating, praying, and reconnecting with myself in the morning.

Then I realized something else. I had outsourced my own understanding because I wasn't really in tune with myself anymore. I had gotten lost in the hustle of trying to get things done. That reminded me that honoring myself means slowing down, understanding my strengths, trusting my gifts, and remembering that I don't have to carry every piece alone.

It also helped me in understanding that each person has a special gift, there are people who love working on websites and those intricate details and that is where their creative genius thrives, mine does not LOL. So in the energy of our shift into the North Node in Aquarius, because yes I do believe in astrological energies and I would not be true to myself if I had not mentioned it here. We are all unique in our own special way, we all have our own special gift that make us who we are, the place we get lost is trying to be everything we are not. That is why understanding yourself is so very beautiful and special, because it allows you to align with your authentic self, to stop struggling and allow the natural flow abundance enter your life.

It also reminded me that it is ok to ask for help. It is ok to collaborate. It is ok to let people do what they are naturally do well. We all have our own special sauce that we bring into this world. The more we honor that in ourselves, and the more we honor it in others, the less we have to force life. We stop trying to be everything, and instead allow each person to contribute what comes naturally to them. I believe that is where the magic lives.